Who would have thought that my nothing more, nothing less valentines date (over a year ago) with an old acquaintance from elementary school, who I attempted to friend zone on the way home would have quickly turned into my fuck yes. He has been the best boyfriend a girl could ask for. He continues to surprise me with his thoughtfulness and on top of that and more importantly has become one my best friends. He makes my belly ache from laughing, he tells me it’s going to be okay, he stands beside me regardless of the choices I make, and he understands that I need time with decisions. I fell in love with him quickly and deeply. I love him hard and I choose him every day. During this past year we have grown both individually and as a couple. Learning about ourselves and each other, sometimes through each other’s eyes. We have exposed our raw unedited versions of ourselves and are continuing to learn how to communicate our thoughts and feelings. Fuck, it hasn’t always been easy, but again I can say that through the tough conversations and a few hurt feelings we have grown closer and our love is bigger than we are. Although we have both felt hurt, it has never been intentional. We have taught each other how we want to be treated and continue to. We both can easily find reasons in each day to smile and we are both accepting and thankful for the rough roads and lessons behind us and look forward to what lies ahead. Life is good. Life is great. Even with the struggles. Love isn’t a substance….it’s all the feels. The feelings that you share with everyone, like the smile on your face. The feelings that no one can see, like the butterflies in your stomach and heart. The freakin’ excitement. Feeling each other’s pain. It’s looking forward to the days together and looking forward more to the nights snuggled up in each other’s spaces.
He’s handsome, caring, supportive, funny, charming, sensitive, genuine and appreciative. He is reasonable, logical, thoughtful and analyzes the hell out of everything! Much like me! We have so many similarities! Our children, family and friends are most important to us. We love hard. We live simple. We laugh. We talk. We accept our lives as precious gifts.
He IS my fuck yes.
Is everything perfect?? Yes!!!
We have loved and lived and we have learned. We both have pasts, suitcases filled to the top. Some really good shit!! Some not so good shit. Some shit buried so deep we aren’t even aware of yet. Our pasts have made us into the people we are today and thankful for all of it. Works in progress. Living each day trying to be better than we were the day before. Trying to understand a little bit more. Being a little more present in life. We each have kids, we have each felt loss, heartbreak, and pain. We have suffered enough, owned our mistakes and we have each had life changing moments that were needed in order to rebuild ourselves and our lives.
What makes our relationship successful is at the end of each day we are standing in each other’s corners wanting nothing but the best for each other. What makes us healthy is talking it out and allowing each other to feel without consequence. What makes us love is simple — it’s the selfless endless desire to see each other happy.
Are we perfect for everyone? Not a damn chance. We are perfect for each other right now, today and that’s all we need. One day at a time.